During an appearance on Talib Kweli and Jasmin Leigh’s People’s Party podcast, Macklemore shares his near to death experience due to his drug addiction problem.

“If it wasn’t for my pops having the 10 or 12 racks that it was when I first went to treatment and to spend that on me, I’d be fucking dead,” he explained. “I wouldn’t be here right now. That’s not to be fucking dramatic, that’s just what it is. I was about to die”, said Macklemore.

The Thrift Shop Rapper also said, “I was lucky enough to go to a facility for 30 days. People don’t know that that’s OK to go to treatment”. He continued, “I didn’t even know it was a disease at the beginning,” he revealed. “I just… I went for years like, ‘Why can I not fucking stop? Why can I not drink and smoke like my friends? Why do I need to like… When I wake up, that’s the first thing I’m thinking about and that I have to go get?’ And other people can just do it on the weekends or three times a week or whatever.”

Watch the whole conversation below: